
Although both difficult to explain and understand, I would like to touch on a subject that’s been weighing on my heart and that of many. I’ve done several readings and had several emails from my followers regarding where they are currently in life and that of their relationship, or lack there of, with God. And well, everything basically comes back to the same thing. Either there was a traumatic situation that occurred in childhood, or at some point, a sudden death had occurred.
At either event in life, a real denial of God had occurred and the lack of faith and trust began to sink in. During this time period a person goes through several emotional roller coasters involving anger, mistrust, sadness, frustration, confusion, depression, and loneliness. It is during this time where we veer off into the “I’ll take care of this myself” attitude, or the “God must not love me, because he allowed this to happen.”

Seperation Time
Day after day, I am receving more and more emails regarding situations in people’s lives in which they are seeking spiritual guidance. The thing is, most of the one’s whom are seeking, have lost their ability to trust in the Almighty, or anything at all. The stories filled with failures and guilt, being let down or abused, having lost someone abruptly, and the list goes on and on. It is very difficult to see any kind of light when you are so deep within the darkness of it all. The unbelievable heartache and solitude can confine even the strongest. It becomes almost impossible to live. Negativity fills our minds and we become prisoners within ourselves. But the question still remains, “If God is Almighty, all Powerful, and all Love, why would He allow bad things to happen?” And the answer is, “I DON’T KNOW!”
Why is God so Mean?
Before I dive in, I’d like to say that I will be speaking through personal experience, and my personal point-of-view. Through life experiences, meditations, books, and intuitive insights throughout the years, I feel strongly about my perception of why this is. I believe that we are all here to both find out who we are, to help others and to fulfill a purpose. Once our mission is complete, or we have served our purpose, we will then move on to our next mission and so on. Some may say that even before we are born, we choose the mission we are sent on. Others may say that we all are assigned to a specific family in order to bring balance or choas to awaken the soul of those who need it.

I think everyone would agree that it is when we are at our lowest, when we call on God the most. Wether a believer or not, the words “Oh my God”, or “God help me”, seem to come to mind. When we have fallen to the very bottom and have nothing else to lose, we are at this vulnerable state, both mentally and spiritually, where you don’t care about anything other than getting out of the whole that we are currently in. This is where change begins to occur. In the bible it says that God longs so deeply to have a relationship with us. Through all the noise of this life, it is easy to lose sight of what is truly imortant and what is insignificant. We lose our focus easily and take for granted all of the blessings within our lives until that one moment that changes it all. The truth is, we were never created to do this life alone. We become depressed when all we can see is the problem at hand, and in turn feel a deep internal solitude.
Truth is, that evil is real! It very much exists and no one is exempt from it https://tse3.mm.bing.net/th?id=OIP.YKSMTA8YciR9UPLf9JpXJwAAAA&pid=Api&P=0&w=300&h=300. In my personal view, the movie “The Shack” gave great examples and explanations regarding this very conversation. We forget that we live in a world that isn’t heaven. This world is surrounded by all kinds of devastation, grief, corruption, and lawlessness, that we fail to see all of the beauty that is also out there. Through loss and devastation, it is impossible to see God’s love because we are blinded by the very problem. Now as a parent, I will always try my hardest to keep my children out of harms way, however, I also recognize that my children will all make decisions on their own that I will have no control over, as much as it may pain me. Now when this happens, I hope that my children will understand that although I am their parent and love them, the decisions are their own and they all will have to suffer the repercussions wether good or bad for those choses they have made.

We all have a fundamemental vision of what our “ideal life” should be, but we fail to see that we all have failures. Non of us are perfect and we are here to learn from one another and pass along the good we’ve learned. We must understand that failure is of our own doing. Our choices define us in every way possible. How we deal with those choices after they are made also says alot about who we are. Every choice we make in our lives will set the tone for the path we will take ahead. The lessons we learned from these choices prepare us for whatever situation we may have to deal with in the future. Good or bad, the lessons and the heartaches will have changed who we are as a person forever. It will change our perceptions, our thought process, our spirituality, and the ability to change our own lives. God has nothing to do with this. We are here to serve, learn, teach and repeat. Our choices, Our lessons, Our doing…May you live your life to the fullest, may you learn from your mistakes, and may God guide your every steps. May he heal the hearts of those who have lost someone close to them, may he mend your relationship with family/friends/spouse, may he rid you of your worries, struggles and diseases, and may your desire to have a relationship with Christ be your top priority so that you may live the life your were always meant to live.
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